Hello, I am sitting here crying because just abour an hour and a half ago, I was holding the lifeless body of a four day old kitty that my mother cat Blue Baby aka Momma Blue, just had. We didn't know the gender of it, but we named him Tipsy Tank, because of how he laid when he slept and the little white tip on his tail.  We tried everything we could, but with the animal hospital 35 miles away, and with calling them and trying to make it up there, HE DIDN'T MAKE IT! I was so shocked, this is Momma Blue's sixth litter, (we were breeding her) and she NEVER lost a baby before. She is hurting too I know, because she tried to take it back to the nest, but we had to take it from her... and she is still crying for him! It hurts so much to have a baby kitty die in your hands, now I wish to no longer breed her, (we weren't doing it for profit BTW, it was because everyone loved the kitty's she had and we gave them to people for free), We are getting one of our male cats neutered on Tuesday, so, that would only leave one more male cat who is 5 months old to fix, but we decided to get him fixed next week too. I am hurting so much inside, I never lost a pet before, and I know that someday it will happen again when my other cats and dogs are grown, but right now, I am hurting.... and it was a baby!!! I need some support BADLY! I am at a lost as to how to deal with the grief!!! HELP!!!! |